'Really, I'm okay.'

Do you know what I mean
When I say,
"Really.
"I'm okay."?

You don't read into it
Even when the tone
Or my voice is telling you
"I'm not okay."

But when I answer,
You aren't even listening
Leaving me alone in the hallway to talk with your other friends
That alone makes me sad

My words are like water
Being poured through the strainer of you mind
You don't catch anything
How sad

Do you know what I mean
When I say,
"Really,
"I'm okay."?

When I wear that look
Or depression
And sadness
When I won't stop looking at my sneakers

When you say, "I'm okay,"
And I know you're not
"I know it's something,"
I say, "You know you can tell me."

You do.
You pour your soul out to me
Leaving me wet
From all your emotions

But, when do you return the favor?
I've never poured my soul before you
Never let you in on what's really bothering me
Because you never care

All you talk about is you;
Or your new boyfriend
Or all you your new things
Or how like sucks because you didn't get your way

I say one thing
About my unhappiness
"I'm sorry," Nothing more;
Nothing less

Then we're back to talking about you
You're the Queen of Interruptions
You chase the spotlight,
Because it has to be on you

No one else is important
In that narcissist mind of yours
How could I ever hope
To get anything past your thick skull?

I don't know how many times
I've comforted you
Felt sorry for you
Help you

But you're never done it for me
You can't even recognize my feelings
Unless I'm doing something drastic
Like screaming and crying

When I say, "Really, I'm okay."
Know that I'm saying
"If you actually care about me, you'll ask again,
"Because it's obvious that I'm not okay."

Do you care when I say
"Really, I'm okay."?
When I wear a look of depression and sadness,
When I won't stop looking at my sneakers.